I don't know why I get so anxious. Being a nude model is such a part of how I identify myself, so when I don't get to do it much, I feel unfulfilled somehow. And I even hesitate to call myself a nude model any more. I like to think of myself as a pure model, as in purely human without all the extra accouterments that society compels us to put on.
Maybe my IT job is too consuming, or maybe our recent move from one house to another has been taking up too much time and resources, or maybe it's just a combination of everything that is leaving me feeling frustrated. I like to think of myself as atypical. I don't want to be the typical IT guy, the typical Christian, the typical political activist, or the typical model. Yet, when I confine myself to any of those titles to the exclusion of the others, typical is how I feel.
I'm sure these feelings will pass once the fall semester gets started, as long as I'm able to book modeling gigs.