The Itch

I was counting it up, and I've only modeled twice since April 21st.  It's the end of July, and the prospects for bookings over the next month don't look good.  When I don't get to model for a long time, I get anxious, and I go looking for places and groups to model for.  I found a place that does sketch nights kind of like the Kettle used to do, and I've offered to volunteer as a model for them.  We'll see what they say.

I don't know why I get so anxious.  Being a nude model is such a part of how I identify myself, so when I don't get to do it much, I feel unfulfilled somehow.  And I even hesitate to call myself a nude model any more.  I like to think of myself as a pure model, as in purely human without all the extra accouterments that society compels us to put on.

Maybe my IT job is too consuming, or maybe our recent move from one house to another has been taking up too much time and resources, or maybe it's just a combination of everything that is leaving me feeling frustrated.  I like to think of myself as atypical.  I don't want to be the typical IT guy, the typical Christian, the typical political activist, or the typical model.  Yet, when I confine myself to any of those titles to the exclusion of the others, typical is how I feel.

I'm sure these feelings will pass once the fall semester gets started, as long as I'm able to book modeling gigs.

Ground Zero

The job in Wyoming that I interviewed for didn't pan out.  I suspect that I was too expensive for them as I had to list the salaries from my last three jobs on the application.  It's just as well since my wife wasn't too keen on moving right now.  So I get to keep modeling in the Dallas/Fort Worth area whenever my schedule allows me to take bookings.

I took a vacation day yesterday and spent it in the Texas State Capitol building in Austin as it has become ground zero in the abortion debate.  Considering that the Roe v. Wade Supreme Court decision struck down a Texas statute, perhaps the Texas Capitol has always been a ground zero in that debate.  I was one of several hundred who testified at a hearing of the Senate Health and Human Services Committee.  I would probably be called a hardcore pro-lifer.  I believe that government exists to protect the right to life, liberty, and property of every person.  I believe that the definition of person must include every living organism that can be biologically classified as homo sapien.

That being said, I was very critical of the supposedly pro-life bill in question when I testified to the committee.  Each witness only had a maximum of two minutes to speak, so I had to give an extremely condensed version of the written testimony that I submitted.

All in all, it was an amazing day.  I feel very fortunate to live in a country where I can participate in the political process.

If anyone is interested, a copy of the written testimony I submitted to the Texas Senate Health and Human Services Committee can be found on my other blog here:  http://texaspersonhood.blogspot.com/2013/07/ground-zero.html